Red House Painters - Have You Forgotten
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“Have You Forgotten” by Red House Painters // from the album, Songs for a Blue Guitar
While dusting off some old songs for some playlists to help with a project I’m working on, I noticed Red House Painters’ “Songs for a Blue Guitar” sitting there and I couldn’t help but to wonder when was the last time I’d made the visit to these songs. When I was a senior in high school I spent many sleepless nights (insomnia has always been part of my life) just lying in bed, with a notebook on my chest (ready for a flash of genius), and these songs on repeat. This track in particular probably forced the rewind button to be pressed more than any other and thinking back on it, I’m not exactly sure why. It’s a somber little tune that certainly brought out the lovesick teenager in me, but by that point in my life I’d started moving on from the awkward stage and actually found myself able to string together sentences that some girls even found charming enough to elicit their interest. If i had to venture a guess as to my obsession back then with this song (and other tracks from the album) it would be that Mark Kozelek’s writing just pulls the strings in a way that makes you actually want to be lost. Maybe it’s the creative side of me that wants to hear a song or see a scene in a film and relate in a way that is probably in no way truly relate-able to my life at that moment. That urge to be the heartbroken, misunderstood creative type was just nurtured by the sad notes of Mark Kozelek’s work. Sure, deep down I was just a kid who desperately wanted his high school crush to bone him, but also I wanted to long for it more than I wanted the actual boning, which incidentally turned out to be awkward and weird. Well this just suddenly went off the rails.
Long story short - Once upon a time, I liked being a sad, misunderstood teenager and this was my late night soundtrack. Sometimes I wonder if all that’s changed is the soundtrack.